He walks back into the room
nervous cuz they don’t teach how to hold back tears
at doctor school.
He says two years
looks down at the floor
afraid for me
but even more afraid for himself
I drive back home
crying the whole way though not sure why
everyone knows that one day they’ll die they’ll die they’ll die they’ll die they’ll die
that one day I’ll die.
I call my family
their faces look uncomfortable
unsure what to say
I don’t want your apologies
just love just love just love just love
Oh, I just want your love
And the only thing that matters is to know you’ll be okay when it’s time to go
love liberates the sun, the stars, the sky will still be there for you I know.
I’m just scared of what’s on the other side
My body’s slowly giving up
I’m trying to hold on but it’s so tiresome
I’m thinking thoughts
I just can’t say them with my tongue
I’m trapped in my own body no escape no escape no escape no escape no escape!
And the only thing that matters is to know you’ll be okay when it’s time to go
love liberates the sun, the stars, the sky will still be there for you I know.
I’m just scared of what’s on the other side
Today’s my final day
I can feel it in my bones
this is my last sunrise
I remember the times that I would play you Billy Joel on piano
and you would dance, and you would smile
But this is the last goodbye,
though I’m out of words you’ll have to hear me with my mind
But I promise you I’m screaming out with all my might
I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you!
and it’s okay,
Goodbye
And the only thing that matters is to know you’ll be okay when it’s time to go
love liberates the sun, the stars, the sky will still be there for you I know.
I’m just scared of what’s on the other side
The debut LP from Allen Epley (Shiner, The Life and Times) blends '70s-style folk/pop songwriting with dreamy, swirling alt-rock. Bandcamp New & Notable Jan 10, 2023